This will be my last post in response to you because I’m done ding-donging with you and I can no longer be bothered to let you bother me anymore.
Don’t bother being nice. Don’t bother with the hi’s and hello’s. Don’t bother offering me drinks when you see me, like in the club the other day when you were all chummy. Because it’s obvious now - you never meant anything you said in front of me, you never meant to be nice and you never meant to make peace. Everything is for show.
I have never even told you off yet for being the third party, for latching onto another girl’s guy and for generally doing all the things you should never have done where the relationship was concerned. All I’ve ever done is take it out on him and yeah, he does deserve it. You of all people should know, since you claim to know so much anyway. And now you want to lecture me about being angry and being hurt????? Please, save your breath!
Btw, a person your age should know it isn’t cool to ‘comfort’ and sleep with someone when they’ve just had a fight with their significant other… stop lying to yourself and being such a fool about whatever reasons you were doing it for. You should have kicked him out of your bed and sent him home to settle things like a man, before allowing him to spinelessly crawl up to you. Yes, that’s the kind of man you fell in love with! And I am ashamed to say I let him have the best of me!
But anyway, everything is in the past. That’s why I sincerely thought we could be friends. That’s why, with a little bit more patience and a little bit more time, forgiveness should be possible… but now I know, you don’t really want it and neither do you really appreciate it. You go about making such a goddamn big fuss about extending your hand in friendship in front of everyone, but now that you’ve finally been given an opportunity to make peace, you turn it down. So come on, it’s obvious it’s not forgiveness, peace or friendship that you want. You just want to be seen as the one who’s doing the politically correct thing… and obviously we all know what politicians are like.
Well, here’s good luck, and here’s good riddance. To you, to him and to a past that I would erase if I could. Not because I regret it, but because I would honestly rather not have to go through so much trouble presently. Thank you for taking him off my hands, and truly giving me a wake-up call. Because honestly, if I’d allowed myself to waste more of the best years of my life, I doubt I would be able to forgive MYSELF in the future.
And oh, do grow up. If you can’t do something, then don’t act like you can. If you don’t like me, then don’t act like you do. Because I would never be so two-faced, even to you.
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