Do a little Daye(may)-dreaming

Peaceful night love :)

Yup, it’s us again. This time sitting in the garden of Unkaizan - the best Jap food place in the nation (I’m pretty sure).

:))))))))))))

Bb, I’ll always remember… “I can feel the fish swimming in my mouth!” :P Love you.

As defined by Wikipedia. This definition based on Buddhism explains more.

I’ve been trying my best to understand and practice this concept ever since I’ve come to know of it. In certain respects, I have been successful. In others, I have just managed to fail miserably. He he. Well, I am only human. :)

Just thought I’d share it with you. :)

About 3 weeks ago…

Hurry up, I said. I can’t wait to do this.

He smiles at me with a gleam in his eyes. Are you sure? There’s no turning back, you know.

It’s been too long, I explained impatiently. I’m nervous, excited… and I just really need this. Please. Make it good.

He laughs as he strokes my hair. And then he promises to satisfy me.

Well, you know how it is when I get bored.  And lately, there’s just been a total lack of excitement. So, I was glad I met Chris in KL over the weekend. He’s cute, sweet and adoringly funny. He teased me, he made me laugh and he opened my heart. I love his passion and his energy, and I especially love what he does with his… ahem, tools. :) Towards the end of our date, I was putty in his hands.

All of the above, of course, led to Bb dating a new girl.

Recognise her?

LOL… Chris can be found at Russell in 1U. The salon is located directly next to the escalator that goes up to GSC, where the old and new wings meet. Yeah, he’s my hairstylist! What were you thinking? :P

So Bb, are we in our 4th month? Or do we start all over again from the 1st? One thing’s for sure - I know you totally love the new, hot shag… ;)

How Will We Love?

I am a person with a lot of dreams… but I guess I’ve never really dreamt of living a life in love.

What I mean is, I have these dreams about my family, my career, my writing, my achievements, my fame, my fortune, my contributions, my etc etc etc… but I never really dared to dream about the basics of happiness.

Finding the love of my life, building my own family and going through the whole domestic works (I’m still cringing a bit now - embarassment, pride or feminist conditioning? LOL) - I don’t think I’ve ever really dared to hope that they could come true. It is easier to control career destiny than love destiny, you know. ;) And after the whole fiasco of the past, I am even less willing to take a chance. No expectations, no disappointments, right? For sure.

But as I watched this docuvie, I find myself hoping, wanting and incredibly, BELIEVING that you and me, we’re gonna make it to a grand old age together. :) Maybe I’m giving you too much credit and placing you too highly on a pedestal, but I know you’re the one who has changed my perspective about living in love.

You do so much for me, you support me, you are absolutely determined to make yourself a part of my life. You love me. Through your faith, you have also given me the freedom and the courage to hope… and believe that dreams of love ARE supposed to come true. :)

I just wanna say… thank you so much. I’m just so happy to be with you. And no matter how the trends of love will become in the future, I know I would want to continue being in love with, and loving you.

Bb, what else can I say… ;)

First very early breakfast (at my favourite hokkien mee stall in front of PT police station)

First trip (over the seas and not counting the other one because that was too short, but this one certainly qualifies)

First touristy roamings (of penguins and God-ducks)

First acceptance (I’m beginning to get warmed up to the idea)

First sunset (shared with you, good company and good food… what more could anybody ask for)

First morning shennanigans (that we both really enjoyed!)

First gift (Vickie Beckhie shades that I really really love)

First sickness (sigh, this is really the first time I’ve ever felt sick on vacation)

First mistaken identity (haha, bb, you were right - it was fun and very very sweet and I’m surprised she didn’t notice there were no rings)

First sunburn (we’ll just be more careful next time)

And all the other first stuff that we do, that we have shared as part of us.

Bb, I want every time to be like the first time. Let the feelings of anticipation, excitement and enthusiasm never disappear. Let me feel the love and the gladness in my heart always. :) I’m just so truly lucky to have all of you.

This is laughter.

So typically us - Heineken

This is tears.

Chicken-a-la-Carte

This is life.

I wish you all the appreciation, loving and living of wellness and bestesest. :)

When he works for almost 24 hours in a day and I work 14 hours plus and we hardly get to see each other so we cherish the weekends together so much, but we know we have to do what we have to do for our future.

Sometimes the missing in my heart goes into overdrive and all I want to do is scream into the phone that I need him to hold me, but I still have to deal with myself because I know he has a lot to deal with as well.

And he goes out of his mind when I’m not around in town as is my duty to be in someplace else, but all the time I am thinking of him and wishing I was with him instead of anywhere else.

So would you mind telling us… why should we waste anymore time on anything that is not worthwhile to us?

How was the car, Daddy?

It’s an old car… probably needs repairs. But it’s a good price… and I guess we could ask for an even cheaper rate.

Daddy… what if we don’t buy it? Doesn’t seem like a good deal to have to repair something that we haven’t even bought yet.

How do I get around then? I really can’t afford anything else…

Daddy, how about this - forget the repairs… get a new car. Mum and I… we’ll help you out. We can manage, between the three of us. :)

Really? … I’ve been thinking… I would really like one in white, just like your Bb’s car.

Sure Daddy, anything you want. Anything you want.

Daddy, I may not be earning millions and millions yet, but being able to commit even this much to make you happy makes me the richest person in the world. It isn’t that much, what I have to give… but between you and Mummy and me, we have this priceless value of love.

Daddy, I guess I’m not really little anymore. But I promise you with all my heart, Daddy, I will always be your girl. And my love for you? Well, let’s just say it’s only going to keep growing and growing and growing… big, bigger, biggest.

With all the love in the world in my heart, Daddy. :)

Inspiration used to be as-easy-as-pie. But these days, I find it hard to pin down a single thought in this whirlwind-a-minute state of my mind.

Entering a time of blissful nothing-happeningness, I think I’m beginning to realise that life in turbulence is much more inspiring with its up-and-down emotions and out-of-control passions than this current peaceful monotony(?). Yes, I am in a happy-healthy-hearty condition… but when the boredom syndrome sets in, I have this knack to go a-seeking for trouble. :) It’s my in-built no-excitement defence mechanism - bounded to kick in without me actually having a say in the whole matter.

Then again, I’ll just have to learn to look for inspiration elsewhere - without trouble close-as-hell on my heels, huh? Or maybe, a partner-in-crime would be the perfect solution (that’s a good(?) thought).

Sorry bout the whole world-weariness bit, promise I’ll be high-and-about soon. ;)